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what is it? Is it really possible to fall out of love? To feel something so deep, so passionate, so intensely real and then simply shed it like so much trash? Or is it instead a phrase invented because it has become the norm to think with your head instead of feel with your heart? Love is not reasonable, it defies logic. You cannot box it up, you cannot define it or understand it, you can only feel it. I've heard people say things like "of course I still LOVE him, I'm just not IN love with him anymore." And I understand the distinction they are making, but I don't believe it exists. I believe it is an illusion we have put up for ourselves to cope with the pain of letting go of love that we feel with everything we have for the sake of logic in the mindscape we have built. I have said something similar myself countless times. But it is a trivial justification intended to convince ourselves just as much as the other party. Because love is unfathomable. It is the feeling that something is happening in the world, that something immense is taking place, and that you are a part of it, that it happened to you and everything is suddenly alive, more vibrant, and you can't believe you never saw it before. Surely something with the power to tear your heart open so completely is not simply felt and then forgotten. Surely. ----- - - 6:32 p.m. , January 29, 2005 personal empowerment - 9:48 p.m. , January 12, 2005 jaksdf - 7:22 p.m. , December 19, 2004 the break up - 11:08 p.m. , December 16, 2004 fists of rage - 6:28 p.m. , December 13, 2004 |